Inner Child Healing: This is the Phoenix Moment

A part of me is burnt to ash every time I share something with you.

Being seen sets my soul on fire — brilliantly, unequivocally, and often in the most uncomfortable of ways.

All my inner children have been running around inside of me screaming lately. They are terrified.
 

A chorus of voices telling me all the reasons I should be afraid. I should shrink. I should quiet down. I should say things differently. I should tone it down. I should watch my words. I should stay silent. I should pretend I’m different than I am.
 

They want me to stop what I’m doing.

Stop talking! Stop sharing! Stop shining!

You could upset someone! What will they think of you? What will they do?!

But no.

I will not live this way anymore.

Yes, they are terrified.

They are children.
 

I am the grown-up now.

Just because we are older in body doesn’t mean that all our inner pieces have aged with us.

They lived their entire life in fear. They didn’t know.

It’s my job now to raise them up the way they always needed someone to.
 

It’s my job now to listen to their worries and to calm their nerves.

To tell them they can rest, I’ve got this, that they don’t need to be afraid anymore.

When we do this for our inner children, something changes within us.

They actually start to rest. They learn they can trust you. They relax. Eventually they play, and heal, and have space to dance and explore and grow.
 

This changes your relationship with all the different pieces of yourself, from all ages and places and contexts you’ve ever existed in.

This in turn changes your relationship with any outer children, or energies that resemble them (young, pure, child-at-heart energies).

This deep healing is necessary for the world. It is something we haven’t always known how to do, or wanted to dive into.

And it changes things. Really and truly, deeply. This is not some mumbo jumbo feel-good expression of things.

When you choose to heal the deep wounds within yourself, you transform your energy. The core of you is changed; qualitatively different (and more “you” than ever before).

This ripples out into everything else. Everyone around you, everyone who comes into contact with you, every space you occupy is fundamentally transformed.
 

I know a lot of this gets conflated with “love and light.”
 

First of all, love is the most powerful force in the world.
 

And secondly, that is not what I’m talking about.

I have spent more time in my inner darkness than I can tell you.

I have spent time nearly being consumed by the shadows of the world as well.

Healing requires spending time within these deep inner wounds.
 

Many of these things need to be physically experienced before we can integrate and truly understand them and learn the lesson we’re meant to through them.

Having appreciation and awareness of the light IS to have trekked through the pain of our shadows. There is no other way.
 

There is imitation. Which is always clear through the energy.

And then there is true embodied integration.
 

True healing and integration is

Understanding and appreciating your light

While holding fierce reverence

For the shadows that birthed you here.

Tawny